ninjaturtle173

I'm terrified to admit That one day I'll quit I'm scared to say That I might not stay This battle that rages This war that doesn't end The scars read like pages So sad I cant pretend There is forever inside Emotions that wont die Feelings that always exist Even at my weakest This thing is always around Even without making a sound It creeps and sneaks out Causing all kinds of doubt It brings up feelings of hate It can make you stagnate It brings up feelings of regret All thoughts are a threat For years I have fought This silent, deadly ghost Of all the lessons its taught One stands out most Through all the pain Through all the sh

Think of your best quality Whatever that may be Now is it a blessing or a curse? Let's examine one and see Mine? Well, that's easy It's Caring One might think That's a good quality to possess But let me tell you, folks It can cause quite a mess For you see with caring Comes a magnitude of stress What some may deem daring Is often our hearts tearing With the weight of feelings being expressed There are days that some can't focus On one thing or another It would be a lie to tell you All of this is hocus pocus And it doesn't really matter For you see as much as I dread it And might come to regret it This endless cycle of worry

My heart has been my own That is until it was shown There is something better Than what it's known I was certain it would stay That was until the day You stepped in my life And never went away I'm not sure when it happened One day everything went snap and It wasn't very rapid But my poor heart wasn't trapped in I didn't know it was missing There wasn't even a hissing In the absence of space With two people wishing You'd think I'd have noticed If something so important and dear Suddenly wasn't there But alas I was unfocused You managed to succeed Where others have failed And I must conceede You've done mighty well My heart

It has been four months, You'd think I'd be okay Through all the fronts I have to say no way. At four in the morning You'd think I'd be snoring. But all I can do Is sit, thinking of you. If you ask what I think I might tend to be meek. But if you really must know Here's how it will go: I miss how easy things were before, I miss the feel of your skin, I miss our rapport, I miss the way you let me in. I miss how easily we talked, I miss how endlessly we'd walk, I miss how we'd converse consistently, I miss how with you I'd never be fidgety. I miss how time didn't seem to matter I miss how nothing seemed to shatter. I miss being

I'm still hurting. I'm hurting not only because you broke my heart But because I know how much this is hurting you too. He's not right for you. I wish you could see that. Anyone who hurts you that much isn't someone you need to be with. Anyone who makes you feel terrible isn't someone you need to be with. Anyone who judges you isn't worth your time. Anyone who hurts you for opening up about what goes on in your head, isn't worth your time. You deserve so much more. You are so special. You deserve someone who will treat you like you are the most important person in the world. You deserve someone who will love you for all of you, Y

Would you miss me if I go? If yes, please let it show Would you miss me if I left? I shouldn't hold my breath. What is this feeling of despair That always comes in night air? What does this feeling represent, This feeling of ill content? Would you miss me if I flee? If not then set me free Would you miss me if I died? If yes then be my guide Why do I feel invisible When my life is divisible? Could I possibly walk away And bid the ones I love good day? Would you miss me if I disappear? Please help me to squish this fear Would you miss me if I walk? Please give me a chance to talk Well I suppose this is it My time to give up

Is it possible to make you see That it was never meant to be? Is it possible to make you see That I can never just be me? I would like to trust you That part is very true But I’m not sure I can I hope you’ll understand Is it possible to show How much I need to grow? Is it possible to show How much you’ll never know? To be alone again Is where I will begin I’ll fly away solo I hope you don’t follow Is it possible to forget All the confusion you've caused yet? Is it possible to forget All the choices I regret? I've made mistakes in life Some of which caused strife But despite all that I've done Not onc

What does it mean to really trust? I fear if I know I’ll be left in the dust We all need to eventually let down our guard But sometimes that can be incredibly hard To tell all of the secrets that have been kept for years Most of which are not meant for anyone’s ears Just the thought of revealing my deepest feelings Does not reaffirm that there will be healing I’m scared to death of what you will say I can only pray that you will stay I cannot fathom the thought of you leaving But my thoughts are ones that are deceiving Even if I do finally open up I hope you still care about me enough To always be my friend No matter

At first I thought this class was going to be fun But now I wish I had a water gun He talks about planets I’ll never see And all I can think is why me? I sit in my desk and I rock and I stew And wonder if the teacher only knew I just took his class to fill my time sheet And other classes have this one beat I sit and watch the clock slowly tick Sometimes I wonder if the hands stick When the final bell rings to dismiss I know this is one class I will not miss And then I'll go out and drink To forget about this class I think I'll look back on this one day and laugh And feel good to know I gave it the shaft Too bad the ending to this cl